It has been four months in quarantine for me. And even though the world has opened up some, I am still very careful. I basically only go out when I need to. On the four occasions that I have met friends out, we were in masks and didn't really stay long. So I have had a lot of time to entertain myself.
I spent a lot of time reading, journaling and throwing away stuff. I really have a lot of stuff. My sister's words when she came over to get bags of "stuff" that I was getting rid of. Yep, I do have a lot of stuff. That was one of the things I discovered about myself. That I always have too much stuff. I wonder if it goes back to when I was growing up and we often didn't have the latest clothes, or when I worked in a clothing store at the mall, but I only had one pair of shoes. That may be why I now have over 300 pairs of shoes, sandals, boots, gym shoes; most that I no longer like or wear. And yes, I do give things away. So, I am not a hoarder. (lol)
I discovered I really love tending to my plants. I used to have a green thumb years ago. Then it went away and every plant I had basically died. But my green thumb is back and I am enjoying taking care of my plants.
I also discovered that I actually like to cook. For many years I didn't cook. It was fun to eat out. Convenient too. But being forced to stay at home reminded me that cooking isn't all that bad.
I discovered that I really like the Hallmark movies and can binge watch them one right behind the other. I think I like knowing that there is going to be a happily ever after ending. There is so much violence and evil in the world that I like being able to escape to a happy place.
I discovered that I can entertain myself for long stretches of time.
During quarantine I let go of my need to be in control. I let go of my need for knowing what was going to happen. I normally don't like surprises because I have a need to know. Some people call it nosey. :)
I learned how to relax and how to take it slow. I let go of my need of always being on the go, moving. I let go of the impatience I often felt when others didn't move at my speed. I let go of my need to force things to happen.
So actually for me, some good did come out of my forced quarantine. As I spend more time alone, I am excited to learn more about ME.